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i haven't blogged in quite some time. maternity leave ended and i started working from home and watching the baby at the same time. it can be quite a juggling feat sometimes. changing diapers, feeding, entertaining, pacifying amidst one handed email writing, phone calls, spreadsheets, etc. the most difficult would be phone calls because a lot of times the baby wants to be loud during those times. it's pretty much ok with my colleagues since they know i work with the baby, but i'm just wondering what our clients think when they hear a baby crying in the background. it also can be difficult to concentrate when you are trying to calm down the baby and hear what the other person is saying on the other line. ah well - i still get the job done regardless. anyway i work via email most of the time so i don't have to deal with that too often. typing emails/working on the computer with one hand and holding the baby in the other does slow me down quite a bit though. i have good days and bad days, the baby has his good moods and grumpy ones, but i guess so does everyone else. i'm just thankful that it worked out this way so that i don't need a babysitter/daycare and i still have a paid full-time job. there was a lot of stress with the job in the beginning due to a crazy transitioning, but it looks like all is pretty much resolved now and things have begun to calm down. hopefully it will continue on this path for next year. no drama please.

this Sunday will already be baby's first Christmas! wow imagine that. already the first major holiday, Thanksgiving, passed and now we are already at Christmas. he got to visit Santa a few weeks ago. and yesterday the baby turned over from his back to his front for the first time! he didn't know quite what to do once he was on his stomach but he did it!! it took quite some force on his end to get to the other side. it sounded like quite a struggle. but he was able to repeat it 2 more times that evening. time sure flies. before you know it, the baby will be crawling all over the place, and I'll be in trouble then because i am sure he'll get into trouble if i bat an eyelash. so it will be tougher to work and watch the baby at the same time. i guess a playpen will be in order. i got him foam tiles for the floor for xmas since we have hardwood floors, but will probably need a fence of sorts.

on another note, not sure if i should be mentioning this in a blog, but i got my period last month right before thanksgiving and now again this month. it's back with a vengeance. i guess it's making up for time lost. i thought you weren't supposed to get it if you were still nursing? maybe i got it because i started supplementing and the baby does not feed as much from me? ah well at least i was period free for a year!

the baby has been good with sleeping through the night since his 3 month visit from the doctor's. i think it is because i started supplementing at every feed. he's not as hungry. on occasion he wakes up once in the middle of the night at 2 or 3 am but he will typically sleep at 8:30ish pm and wake up at 5:30ish am. his morning talks can be quite loud and shrill. i think he's practicing his vocal range from supreme alto to bass. it can be quite hilarious to hear at times but at 5 in the morning, you sometimes wish you could turn the volume down a notch. all in all i can't complain. i've got a pretty good-tempered, seemingly happy for the most part, healthy baby who has an infectious smile (must be the dimples). i've got a hubby who makes me breakfast and dinner daily and does the house cleaning. what more can you ask for? although maybe sometimes the hubby feels underappreciated. my bad. i sometimes feel the same way - we're all only human and doing the best we can. i guess i can be all consumed in work and baby sometimes, and i don't give enough attention to my hubby who is my backbone and strength and whose help i need (and do appreciate very much so) because i couldn't do this all by myself.

on a sad note, my mom's best friend's sister passed away a couple of day ago, right before the holidays in a tragic hit and run motorcycle accident. i didn't really know her but i do know my mom's best friend and i know how awful it must feel to lose a sibling. i know their family is very close knit. it's sad when tragedy strikes at any time but even harder i think when it is the holidays because the holidays are supposed to be a happy occasion but then it becomes linked to a sad event. but so goes the cyle of life...you really need to be thankful for each day you have and share your love with those you care about because you really really never know.