hair today gone tomorrow

so I cut my little boy's hair again..I think this attempt was better.  It took 2 days to get it right because he wouldn't let me finish the first time - he started crying and wanted to get out of the chair.  It's a faux hawk sort of thing..mostly shaved except the middle top.  I even used the shaver without issue.  I kind of like cutting hair.  It's fun.  Not that that will now become my new career choice..I've been sending out resumes each week and I got my first rejection letter without an interview.  Apparently I'm not qualified enough for the position and not worth an interview.  Ugh. 

in memorium

3 years ago today my cousin passed away, 8 months shy of his 30th birthday.  He will be forever young, looking down at us from wherever he may be, as we get old and crotchety.  Well, one never really does know what happens after death, but I do hope his soul is still a part of our lives somehow. Maybe when someone dies, their soul is spread to all the people they love so that we all hold a piece of their soul within our hearts always. 

the daddy mac will make you jump, jump!

My mom bought a trampoline for the backyard - a small one for the baby and the cousins to use.  It was a hit at Easter even though it was really too cold to be outside.  Earlier today I could see that the little man was trying to jump.  He kept practicing - he'd end up doing a little hop or maybe more of a skip.  He would move up to his tippy toes and go back down.  He would try again to get some height. He was able to maybe jump an inch off the floor.  It was tooooo cute.  You really forget, or at least I forget, that everything - every little movement has to be learned including how to jump. 

Now that I have time off, I've been trying to take my son to the playground every day or Barnes and Nobles for a change of scenery if it's cold.  I noticed that I am a very nervous mother.  Every time he's on the the playground, I get really nervous about him climbing all those things.  Even the slide gets me nervous if it's a big one. I'm just afraid he will fall.  I think it's because he falls when he's just running on flat ground..When he's up on those jungle gyms sometimes they're not age appropriate - there are large gaps and rungs to climb on that he can't really manage as of yet so there I think I have the right to be a little cautious.  But other areas, I am sure he would manage fine, but I am running right up behind him to make sure he is ok.  Am I coddling him too much?  I don't want him to get hurt though.  Maybe his whole rolling down the stairs thing really has gotten to me. But he needs to learn to be independent, and I need to learn to maybe let go a little.  I know I make it sound like he's 1 going on 21, but all the other kids are running around like crazy banshees and their caretakers are just sitting on the park bench like nothing doing.  But he's not as old as the other kids so he does need to be watched still.  I will probably have a heart attack when he gets older and starts climbing up to the top of jungle gyms and all those whosiewhatsits.